Grief

Only two things in this life are certain: you will die and you don’t know when. These are certainties yet we spend most of our time trying to avoid thinking about such “unpleasant” things. Thus, when someone dies or is seriously ill it becomes a calamity. We are unprepared. Everything about our physical bodies has been shaped by evolution. Our evolutionary mission is simply to survive and reproduce. Any adaptation which increases the chances of success in this mission is kept and becomes a part of our genome. Grief is one such adaptation. Grief is a healing process. It allows us to assume the terrible pain of loss, abandonment and…

A tale from the dark side

A constant companion in my life has been a dark hole of despair. This feeling is not unusual for people who have suffered the types of neglect, abuse or abandonment that I did as a child. In my case (and many others) it gave rise to compulsive avoidance behaviour with drugs (I include alcohol), sex, falling in love, work - in fact anything that would help me “escape” that empty sense of despair.  The strangest aspect of all this was that I was not aware that I was trying to escape anything; I just felt a compulsive need to always be  “doing something”.  There were many days, during many years…